Just as long as you stand, stand by me (Stand by Me, Ben E.King)
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with hopes or without,
there's still disappointment.
or maybe, i needa a little more time.
don't like the me that i often forgotten the promise
i made to myself, even just a day ago.
one song that justine intro me,
though was a pretty long ago one, =)
ah i'm sorry for not meeting up tonight,
will promise to help you move ur stuff!
and, i think the photocopier machine dislikes me extremely, whenever i used it, it jammed. today, it started jamming since 1210, all the way till 1300. i felt so paiseh to keep asking for help. then, 1330, i went again, thinking probably it is working fine. but it broke down on me again, this time with many other colleagues on queue. and they said, "orh, is you arh", =x hmm, so they gave me this nickname, the Maintenance Girl.
generating forms, drive me crazy. cause it often meant that my desk gonna be files everywhere. but one piece of great news, i guess makes everyone's monday no longer blue. friday, no work for everybody. meaning, this week only 3 workings day, two more to go.
arhh, don't want continue le, tired and nooooooooo moooooooooooddddddddddddddddddd.
everything's so screwed, for the entire day. =( what the heck had i been doing. gees. sometimes, if we do try too hard, we'll tend to do the otherwise. and probably that's what we wanted to do.
eew, no more milkshake for lunch for the time being i guessed. spent too much on lunch recently. broke soon. but 28 (monday)! =D
next week gonna be great! XD tuesday, thursday, saturday!
ha, took bus&train with a colleague. chatted quite alot of random stuff.nice =)
and gees. i slept till kembangan. =x
hmm most of the work done, tomorrow if no new stuff given, shld be able to get all done by early noon. if den, den yup. u know wad i'm thinking?! Haaa!!
*tired. =p
one random topic brought up during lunch, virgo, loves perfectionism. supposingly, it is. lol. me and one colleague's respond were so alike. "不会咧. 我virgo的咧." lol.
** the moment we only learnt to cherish, might be too late.
eew, much much much more better now. thought i couldn't make it to work today. =x
*yesterday, raining so heavily. work was okay, =) spent time clearing my stuff, then left ard 530.
reached vivocity @ ard 620, waited till 645 for the movie. but gees, since dunno when during work was having a bloody bad headache, throughout the movie was feeling kinda unbearable.
*definitely, maybe. its a nice movie! though with my bad condition, ha. so its about william who once had 3 relationships, one of which was his wife, but they ended up in a divorce. he was telling his daughter, maya, about the 3 relationships he had, and maya was to work it out herself to guess who was her mummy as william played around with the names. i like april. but sometimes the timing just isn't that right. still, the ending is sweet. =) overall, i like the movie.
*after movie, went pharmacy for panadol, then to food court for quick dinner, since it was already 9pm, took bus ard 940, slept throughout till 11. =s i thought it might took shorter time at that hour. dad was waiting for me downstairs already. =x so yup, got home at 11, merely 20 mins, i was on bed, fast asleep.
gees, hopefully today's work gonna be like yesterday's. i want weekend, i want to sleep. =x
this week gonna be a little tough, (no day off =x) but spending quite a few of the days out after work. =) wanted to mark attendance (gc) for today's, but dozed off soon enough after i on the com @ 4plus (am). =s guess no perfect attendance for this week. =x
oh well, i'm glad i was able to enjoy for tonight. =) done with 5 episodes of HanaY. left with episode 7 to 11. surprisingly, with eyes half closing, haha!
yesterday's work rather slacking though was continuously working on till 3plus. =D stayed in the photocopier room until lunch, den cont' for 30 mins. heh.
during lunch boss was talking to me abt my plans. hmm, her questions kinda made me think abt some stuff. =S
then hrs later she was telling me today there'll be a perm staff, but i think i needa stay there till she's familiar with the stuff there. =S i think. so at least a week more? i wonder how she's like. =D
after work met up with many many many people. LOL. oh well total of 8, including me, lazy to type out one by one. =) i siam off frm company on the dot before it started to rain. heh. went to rent the robes before dinner. dinner went to vivo. =o
anyway, laughed like mad. esp on the way to vivo. i think the driver damn pek chiek with the 3 of us (apple/me/hanni) at the back. kept joking no money. HAHAHA. =D hah! going out after work is always the happiest thing to look forward to! =D
morning OMG lah! i wondered why my clock was one hour faster, ended up waking me an hour earlier. mus be one of my boy's fault. =S
today spent most of the time generating®enerating forms. doing this need patience. and yet i made errors after errors. luckily my boss very very very patient with me. =p extremely, extremely, extremely sleepy throughout the day, but was at the state that sleepy yet forced to keep awake, abit semi-unconscious. =X do till i nearly wanna break down le sia. opps. first time my desk full of files, papers everywhere. haha! see till i wanna *cry. LOL. but finally before knocking off, all done. =X and tomorrow gonna be even busier.
haha, initially i very paiseh to ask for thursday off. but well, i see the timing, hehehe... so i said, this thursday i got..... hahaha! boss knew wad i wan say le. =X yay! my thursday! =D
was raining so heavily, so i left company later, hah 610 den leave, and wanted to go JE to change to bus. already cmi on train le. stand and sleep. =X
wanted to sleep all the way frm 8 till morning le, sob, my door kept opened and closed. @@ so woke up @ 11plus le. hmm awhile more go back sleep le. tomorrow after work still gng somewhere else. =S
having the hair length back to shoulder length, definitely not a wise decision i made for this yr. now having to take time to take care of it, i rather sleep more. i think i gonna get tempted to go for rebond real soon. =X
i love hearing them saying, "oh no!" hahaha. so cute!
i slept so "early" in the morning, and got called up ard 10+ to wash up. =.=" so no care, i dragged till 12 den woke up. lol.
went for haircut first, hmm, shoulder length le. =X and my rebond-ed hair all gone, meaning, no more straightened. so sad. hah!
hadn't been to tampines for quite some time. hah. and guess wad?! C.R.A.P! we bumped into my aunt&uncle. HAHAHA. side by side. and i was stunned, quickly find my mum. hmm, at least 4 yrs din saw them alrdy. =X
so went shopping for 3 hours+, bought many many many stuff, hahaha! weee. hmm, i got my list ready le. LOL. i'm patiently waiting for next week. =D but top priority, phone, sob. but i needa pay extra 100. =(
hmm, before going out, i was still thinking about the boys, then bro called asking mum if she wants to bring them out today, soooooo.... ta danggg~~ they sent us back home around 5+ to meet dad, and then off we went to suntec.
xian kinda glued to me today. hohoho. and he was having fever, =S dinner settled @ J.N, yea, and again. i finished mine earlier, so brought xian to walk around and bought pretzel. hahaha. after i paid, i realised i gonna be running out of cash soon, so i told him, err, i no money le, and he replied. 姑姑没有钱... LOL!!! little precious couldn't take it too long, and fall asleep on the way back to find them. hmm, he slept till we reached carrefour.
walaoooo! lol. i left my bag with my dad, with my phone in there. i walked away seeing stuff, and then couldn't find them. LOL. freaked out sia. cause i forgot where they parked the car too. opps.
OH. i saw one BN's schoolmate working there. err, forgot his name though. =D
hmm, left ard 10, and went to their house first. stucked there for 1 hr+. =s needa wait for them to sleep then we could leave. i dozing off there, hah!
shacks. sometimes i wished i could be a little little little more ----.-- the -------- of mine sucks.
it did bothered me the whole day, today.
=( i'm hard to please&understand.
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eek!! i just asked for something, and the reply was ...!!! let me rant for a moment, =X selfish. selfish. selfish!!! so selfish!!! u so selfish!!!! humph!!!
Late at night when all the world is sleeping I'd stay up and think of you And I'd wish on a star That somewhere you are thinking of me too
'cause I'm dreaming of you tonight Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight And there's no where in the world I'd rather be Than here in my room, Dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me And I wonder if you know I'm there (know I'm there?) If you looked in my eyes Would you see what's inside? Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close But so far, all I have are dreams of you So, I wait for the day and the courage to say How much I love you(Yes, I do)
I'll be dreaming of you tonight Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be Than here in my room, Dreaming about you and me
Late at night when all the world is sleeping I stay up and think of you And I still can't believe that you came up to me And said, "I love you; I love you too
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight Till tomorrow, and for all of my life And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be And here in my room, Dreaming with you endlessly...
(ftt) out of the 3, 2 made it. grats! =) no miracle for me, =p but i deserved it anyway, heh.
watched untraceable, then went to bugis for dinner and trying out formal tops and shoes wanted to ask about my internet's contract but pretty troublesome, so forget it, this saturday then settle everything together, hee. i think i gonna get the k660i. =X
alright, back to reality, back to work, and again.
*note that i had actually typed all this the day i went back HAH!
Day 1
Met up with huiyi after work @ buona vista, was sooyin’s last day at work also, so Monday onwards, I’m on my own. =( Got home around 715, roughly 30 mins to pack up everything that needed to bring over, so reached there ard 820.
1) had dinner, and started the first game, MS. Whereby all of us, will take turns to open our envelopes in the room, so first “b” started ard 9, with some asking to target the tv, since many of us wanted to watch the finale. (speaking of the finale, soso lah the ending.) Then was tv time, and while started off with the card games, someone with an accomplice had already “b” 3 places within 3 hrs. hahaha. And we girls spent some time in room discussing who we were suspicious of, and bla bla bla. so we suspected 2 pple, EEW!!!
2) Played 1hr plus to 2 hrs of old maid. Suay that last game I kena, gees, and one forfeit. but wow, the forfeit not really that bad, =p whippedcream&lime/lemon? =D taste good. =p
3) Crap in room after games and bath. Had pillow-fight. Haha. 2v1 lo. Bullies! So as usual, laugh laugh laugh till we’re dead tired and knocked out one by one, while the guys played and chatted till the next morning, (even when Hanni&me were up for breakfast. =o)
Day 2
1) Walked to downtown for breakfast (mac) with Hanni, weee, tried the new meal, not bad.
2) Waited for the others to be up, which was around 10+? Hah.
3) Then played some rounds of MJ. =o (that SC gave up helping me, saying that he wld have a headache seeing me play, Hahaha!)
4) Played till 12+, or 1, went to buy lunch, but opps, sorry to sc&shawn for taking the wrong orders. =p
5) After lunch, and started the sink-the-cup game. Total of, 11 or 10 rounds?
6) First round errr, was it SC (1x)? Then Hanni (1x), then ermmm, I only remembered the others who got the forfeits were shawn (2x), Kenny (1x), KT (1), Bernard (3x), apple (1x) and me (1x). Hmm, end up like 11 leh. Hahaha.
7) Yay, after that was waterbombsssss!! Hahaha. Initially was to bomb the guys. Ended up throwing here and there, and then played zhong ji mi ma. And that’s when the guys brought out the pail too. Lol. Kena it when they were aiming the one who lost. Hanni then said, she don’t feel very wet still, so we bombed one another, LOL! Then when we wanted to clear the litters, eew, cause we found some bags still filled with water, so aimed whoever appeared in front of us, and I aimed shawn who was infront of me, and he went in bringing the pail, dunno filled with how much water and aimed me. LOL. Totally drenched.
8) Oh, then the answer to the MS game, EEK. i thought is......!! LOL. Can only say, really li hai. LOL.
9) Then bbq food came, so started fire, and bbq-ing. =D had fun playing with the prawns and of course eating the prawns XD. Hahaha.
10) Bbq-ed till some time later, went in for games, and missie called to ask where I was. Surprisingly she remembered that I told her I’d be having chalet this week haha, so she wanted to come over before going home since she was at downtown. Played zignity that ruth introduced, before jx came over and we accompanied her. And during this period of time, quite a few times Bernard stood somewhere behind me and called me, which really scared me lah. Hahaha!
11) Went up for aircon after bathing, which was around 10plus, then ate, chatted, played on bed. While playing, missie called again telling me she was outside with Henry, so went to meet them haha!
12) As usual, played old maid till tired, and one by one knocked out. Well before 3am. =) but shacks, Friday night was still alright, yesterday night was terrible, nose blocked for sucha long time that I went out sitting by the stairs till much better.
Day 3
1) Around 8, alarm went off, so woke up to pack the clothes and stuff, until 9+, the guys woke up, and then we checked out.
2) Went to reception to wait for the bus, and to White Sands for breakfast.
lunch ate out and on the way and back, i dozed off in the cab. =X super duper tired, so far, first time really really really tired. while doing work, the eyes were already hardly opened. eew.
after work, went to JE finally returned the library book, and we walked to Science Centre for the Sakura Dinner Buffet. hahaha, at there, we were all talking about how long we hadn't been there.
hmmm.. ate for about 1plus, then walked back to inter for home.
and crap! tmr's the advanced test, hahaha. and here i am, not reading, but 放空ing...
alright, i go edit my chalet's post, and post it up then.
when disappointment came along, everything's gonna be over, not matter how hard you try.
slightly late for work today. and so there's no time to day-dream, needa work immediately. hmm, while doing work, was waiting for boss, but waited till 9am, still no sign of her, =o i was wondering was there any possibility there she was on urgent leave or something. until 920 or so, she walked in, and hah, one of the colleague told her he wanted to ask me go home liao. but sob, my work had been accumulatedsince friday. hahaha.
last 3 hrs were spent writing over 100lines. =S my hands went numb. and shacks, either due to lack of sleep or the aircon, super duper headache after 3, that my head was resting on the table while writing. =X
then crap! i forgot to scan my card after work. LOL. and boss actually reminded me to do so when i packed my stuff. eeeeeekkkk!! i already walked to the overhead bridge, then rushed back again, kinda malu. HAH. but luckily i remembered before i took the bus, otw i think i gonna faint. ha!
after work, went to je for dinner, eew. okay, super malu @ mac. the tray of food fell off to the chair. =X then i think that was the manager. hahaha, he offered to help changing the fries.
opps, today i'm kinda blur.
oh, so today someone is rich. and someone, automatic arh, treat pls. LOL.
one more day, and its off day! weeeeeeeeee!!
oh, and will post up the chalet details later then. =) *later, may not be really later. Lol.
slept frm 1-5pm. gees. but i guess cant sleep anymore, otherwise i gonna have a hard time later at night but this coming week gonna be easier to spend with, since i have a day off on wed. =)
and, taa dang~ a new blogskin.
but, i'm rather in a blurry contradicting mood, at this very moment.
Don't tell me how i had a vison That this day would come to be Call it luck, call it intuition Here I am (here we are), isn't that enough For a little bit of reality Fate is good, fate can be real If you believe it's what you feel
Oh, what a moment When i looked into you eyes I knew i got the prize Oh, baby, what a sweet surprise
It only took a minute, to let you in my life It only took a minute, for me to realize It only took a minute, and i knew just what to do It only to a minute to fall in love with you
Time and time again, boy I've always been The only one who think things through You got a hold on me, set me free Who would've known that out of the blue
I discovered the magic of all my dreams that night With just one look at you I knew that everything would be all right
It only took a minute, to let you in my life It only took a minute, for me to realize It only took a minute, and i knew just what to do It only to a minute to fall in love with you
Here I am, isn't that a vision Here I am, isn't that a vision
today busy busy busy. that i din sms to nag about time is slow. hah. 2 more days and i'll be there alone. =S
anyway, when we went back to company after lunch, nearly stucked in the lift, lol. it neither went up nor down for some time, sy still kidding that maybe we could stuck there till knock off, LOL. i was freaked out sia. hahaha!
as usual, left at 6, =S and hah, finally remembered to take leave for next wednesday, weee~~~
i'm sleepy, gees.
the stars will shine for you, from the moment you believe =)
---- oh well, yw's started to work.. n the msn online contact din see her name made me feels.. lonely? haha~ maybe, just now use to it u see... lol~ ----
hahaha! admit you miss me sooo much pls! =p
oh crap, i jus remembered a silly sms my sis sent me when i was @ bugis jus nw. walao, i forgotten today's 1st april when she sms-ed me, wth, nearly, din read finish the sms, and wanted to call to scold her already. Lol.
work today pretty okay. most of the time at our own desk doing the updates separately, especially i was glued at my desk after 2pm all the way till 530, with few cups of hot milo. =D i had fun pressing the button for hot milo. hahaha..!
arhh, but time after lunch is super duper slow. cos after lunch, there's 5 hours. during lunch, we were talking abt how much we really miss school days, lol. i miss the days spent there crapping/dozing in class and stalking!! Haa..!!
today left company slightly later, ard 6, so by the time i got to station was 620. twenty minutes late opps, sorry!
so went bugis for dinner, and some shopping, pretty rushing today. =X left ard 9 to get back home before 10.
and shacks, i think i'm having stm =.=" i could have difficulty recalling what i did for the day, eew.
ohh cham, i'm getting more and more siao these days. crap.
